Kailun's

Tuesday, January 29, 2008 10:41 PM

Do you love me?

Okay, Today is a long and tiring day.

So, SS was first.

Slacked and all.

So tiring.

Chem was next.

Miss Aida was absent.

So free periods,

Completed my 3 topic of CR =.=

Hand so sour lah.

Recess slacked and all.

Then F&N test was next.

Do finish and fell asleep.

Gosh, so tired.

Then Physics, have MCQ test.

Anyhow shade the answer and went to sleep.

So Emaths after that.

Blahblah,

Ok lessons and all.

Lazy to say everything.

Ohya, Me, mich and valent helped to draw KiatLun poster!!

And Like wasted our efforts lah.

BOOOOOOOO ~

Ok, so went for the karaoke thing.

And went wm meet sly and sw.

Sw was sick. So takecare ok. :D

And bused home with sly after that.

That stupid bus came 30 mins later.

Waited like shit.

Okay, Sly is on the phone with me now.

He cant slp =.=

And have to go breakfast with them tmr.

Duh. I'm wondering should I go not.

Okay, So that's it for today.

Tata readers ~

Everything ended just like this.

I love you still :(

I miss you.

When can I see you again. :(

Monday, January 28, 2008 11:06 PM

Sighs, I'm veryvery down now lah.
Hell. Shucks.

He sms-ed me.
Saying that he don wanna hurt me,
Thus, don wanna try anything.
But he din noe that,
He've alr hurt me deepdeep down,
When the day I got to know him, & Jasmine.
When the day I got to know every single truth bout you.
You say that I'm childish,
But you din noe,
You are the cause.
You told me that you'll be there.
But where are you,
When I cried,
In front of my friends and families,
At the night alone,
Where are you when I needed someone the most,
Where are you when I need a listening ear and shoulder the most.

I know maybe you hate to msg me.

Or maybe you're avoiding me.

You don't know that how much I yearn and wants you to reply me.

But you always don't in the end.
I'm tired of crying,
I'm tired of knowing the truth.
I'm tired of acting strong,
I'm tired of smiling and laughing,
When deep down inside,
I'm bleeding.

I'm tired of waiting for your msges,

I'm tired of waiting for your calls.

I'm tired of all your LIES.
I'm tired of all this shits.
Stop it, Will you?
You wouldn't know how I feel,
You wouldn't know how much I've hurt.
You wouldn't know things that I'm encountering now.
You wouldn't feel the heartpain I have now.

You wouldn't know how long I've waited for your msges and calls.
You wouldn't know anything,
Cause in your heart,
There isn't me, at all.
Even till now,
I'm still not a part of your life.
Heaven is having games which I don't wish to play.
Heaven make me goes one big round.
Put yourself into my shoes,
If you feel that it hurts you,
It probably hurts me, too.
Boy, I'm tired.
I need a shoulder to lean on.
I'm feeling so lonely and alone.
I hate this feeling.
I detest to be alone.
I hate to be lonely.
I hate this feeling,
Whereby, I need someone,
Yet, nobody is there.
I feel so alone all the time,
Even when I'm in sch.
Though I know that,
There will be friends who care,
Families who love.
But my heart,
Still feel so lonely and alone.
Teach me what to do,
I'm really,
Really on the edge of breaking down.
I miss you.

6:22 PM

&Will you still love me?

Ok, Sat & Sun nth happened.

Went Chewyi hse.

Stayed overnight.

And papa bite me lah.

Hell. Like a kid ~

But he's still the best.

When papa send us home ytd.

He asked me how's me and him.

Told him we're friends.

He comfort me and all.

Thanks Dad, you're the best.

Ily <33

He's my dad! :D

Look at his stupid face.

Alright, so
Went sch today.

MT was first.

Got back our test.

And I swear Mdm Loy is like damn strict lah.

T-T

Slpt abit.

Then A maths after that.

Listen and all.

Recess, slacked and played.

Emaths, got back our test.

Quite satisfied.

But I don't think it's up till my standard yet.

I could have done better.

And after that was EL.

Wrote informal letter to our classmates.

Wrote for Shenlynn.

Yep, So after that,

VE, went to hall.

And our class line is like long can.

Overflowed lah. BOOOOOO ~

Too many pple.

Duh. So after that went back classroom slacked.

Played cards and all.

And went westmall with the same old pple again.

And I'm always the only girl with that big bunch of guys lah.

Just because of SLY!

Cause we took the same bus home. T-T

Pathetic me.

Okay, photos for today.

Ahmin &me in toilet during EL. :D Love her.

That stupid red red.

I'm always holding strong to my tears,
in front of my friends and families,
That's because of you.
I always cried and wipe away my tears,
Acting strong in front of everybody,
Telling them that I'm okay,
When I'm actually not,
That's because of you.
I always told everyone that I'm down because of tests,
But no it wasn't,
That's because of you.
You took my heart to the 30000.....th storey,
And throw it down hard,
Making me myself,€
picking those shattered pieces of heart, ALONE.
You are the one who took my hand,
And assured me that I'll be fine.
And now you're the one who let me go,
Leaving me all alone behind.
You changed my heart again,
Cause you knew that my heart's soft.
And I'm so silly,
To wait for you alone,
To wait for the day,
Where you'll hug me,
Saying that you still miss me,
Saying that you still care for me,
And saying that you're still IN LOVE WITH ME.
I'm not happy, at all.
Though I always seems to.
Where's the KarenOngKaiLun that everybody used to know?
Is she dead?
Or just lying there unconsciously,
Waiting for that stupid miracle to happen.
I miss you, KarenOngKaiLun.

Friday, January 25, 2008 7:45 PM

&I need a hug, too.

It was thursday ytd, I skipped sch, again.
But the giddiness is really killing me.
Heard that loads of pple were absent ytd.
Yep, So get MC,
And referred to SGH.
Have to go for Medical checkup on Feb29.
And I still owe KKH a medical checkup,
And maybe have checkup for my hand somewhere around march/april.
Hell, so many medical appointments coming up. =/
Duh. Alright, it was raining elephants and rabbits by the time I reached home.
And I told hailiang I'll find him if the rain stops before 6.
Surprisingly, it stopped at round 5.30.
So prepared myself and went to find him.
Slacked and played,
And trained down to BoonLay alr.
Slacked at there and guzhang send me home after that.
Yep, took one photo with sheng.

That 16yrs of cousin-ships <33>

Went sch today.

EL was first.

VERYVERY tired lah.

:( But have to listen.

Cause english is an important subject.

Agree? Yes :D

So after that was Physics.

Went toilet slack with mich.

Darn hungry and tired lah.

So Recess, ate and all.

3 periods of A maths after that.

2 and half period for test,

On trigo and Binomial.

Sighs, Was veryvery down lah.

Cause I feel soso stupid.

I din even noe how to do.

:( I don wanna drop my a maths.

Neither do I wanna fail it :(

So after sch slacked in class for awhile,

And went westmall for dessert,

Jx meet me there.

And bus-ed home with sly after that.

Its good to have friends taking same bus as you.

Cause you don have to take alone :D

So gave sly see something in the bus.

So Sly, better don tell pple uh :D

Ohya, I have to thanks red red lah.

Cause he told me alot alot.

Thanks red red,

You're the best k :D

Sighs, Big girls don cry.

And I won drop any tears for you I supposed.

I won give up,

Cause I have friends and families,

Who love, who care, who concern,

More than you do.

Thats the reason why I love them,

More than I love you. (:

Wednesday, January 23, 2008 11:12 PM

I'm dying inside out.

Ok, Supposed to eat breakfast today with Sly,
But I got too lazy lah.
So bombed him.
Sorry lah Sly. :(
I promised him next week.
So hope I won get lazy next week. :D
Ok, So I met Valent at 173 bus stop.
And went in sch tgt.
I went toilet while he helped me take my bag to the class.
Thankyou Valent! :D
First period was homeroom.
And Huimin was absent today.
BOOOOOOOOO ~
Boring lah. :( Min must takecare hor.
Hope you'll have a speedy recovery!
So had admin stuff and all.
Physics was next.
Was quite down lah. ):
Recess, ate and all.
Chem after that.
Had test.
I'm gonna fail lah ):
Sighs, I've been deproving alot lah. ):
I need motivations lah. ):
MT had test again.
That was ok.
Break after that.
Took Hk bag to canteen.
LOLS, I wanna buy bagpack!
Ok, whatever. Took file from chewyi and went back.
Played soccer and crazying.
Went E4, played and lisiao.
LOLS, with those yu-gi-oh cards.
Duh, dont noe how old are them,
And I swear the Marshmello or whatever is damn cute can!
I want that! But stupid sw don wanna give me.
): Maths was next.
Had test, again =.=
3 tests in a row.
I'm going bonker soon I think.
Hell.
But this is our last year alr.
So must treasure this times.
Have to leave my 4 years friends ):
I'll seriously miss them, alotalot. ):
Esp mins, mich, eve, sly, hk, sw, ysw, valent, amery, kj, bren, red red, all those from E2.
I'll miss you all, alotalot.
Your jokes and all. ):
I swear. ):
Ok, stop all my emo-ings.
So helped valent do his hw.
Cause have to wait for him lah.
Slacked outside library to wait for him.
And he have to do test, =.=
Went wm wait for him instead.
Ate and I swear those guys are PSK lah.
BOOOOOOOOO ~
Took 178 home with sly and valent after that.
Yep, Dumbdumb :D

&I fell onto the bed first thing I reached home lah.
Darn tired.
Din slpt at sch today ok. :D
Alright, I'm going to slp sooooooooon.
So tired after eating that Damn med.
So goodnight readers! :D

Ok, I am veryvery confused,
Tell me what to do lah.
Sighs, &Do I, or Do I not?
Tell me an answer, please.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008 9:57 PM

Sighs, & today is the 22nd. :(
I'm feeling so downdowndown ):
Shucks this feeling.

9:37 PM

&This love's starting to change to hate.

Ok, skipped sch ytd.

Cause my giddiness back again =.=

Hell, and that damn doctor was lazy to give me a referral letter to SGH.

She told me to go A&E.

Fk, my condition isn't serious, AT ALL.

Ok, So slacked and all.

Went sch today.

SS was first.

Slept throughout.

Was darn tired. zzzz

MT was next. Do compo and all.

Then recess. Ate and played.

Darn that red red.

So EL, do subject-verb agreement.

And I was darn tired lah. ROARS!

So after that was hist.

Watch vid.

About war in Japan.

And War is like, scary lah.

I pity those pple. :(

Feel so sad for them.

So break. Went toilet slack.

Huimin don't wanna take with me :( BOOOOOO~

So went back class and played alot.

Was really crazy.

Cause Ms Phoo din came.

Crazy-ing all the way.

Played cards and all.

After sch. Blahblahblah.

Went to have out lunch at pizzahut.

And I'm broke soon ~~

Damn. And went home after that.

Yep, So here I am. :D

Ok, shall stop here.

Bye readers ~

There's so much things that happened,

And I knew alot.

You bluffed me and all.

You ruin my life.

I've got to let go.

And I swear I'll forget you,

One day. I swear.

&I'm starting to hate you.

Monday, January 21, 2008 6:33 PM

&I found myself alone again.

Back to update :DDDDDDDD

Went to bugis on sat.

Met sly, amery, sw, ysw at je first.

Then went up platform to meet kj.

Then I alight at queensway.

Erm, for some reasons. Yep.

And went back bugis to meet them.

They was at arcade.

And I don noe where it is =.=

As a very great friend,

Sw came and brought me there :D

Thanks uh sw.

So slacked and played at there,

Met hk at there too.

And I swear Hk basketball is like, PRO man.

Ok, I video-ed down,

But I don noe how to upload it.

Sly and ysw played lan

While we went to find place at the foodcourt there.

And we have difficulties findind seats there.

In the end we have to sit seperately lah.

BOOOOOOO~ so took photos.

They were playing PSP and they don wanna let me play lah.

&He treat my bag like his bolster. =.=

He's trying to act cute ok & Amery din noe I took this :D

Amery: Eh hk you see you see. xD

Hk din want the soup, so we threw all the things that we dont want in :D

After that went bugis street.

Met chewyi they all there.

And bought my heels, finally ~

And went back to bugis junction.

They ate mac, while I ate my pocky :D

As usual, photo taking while waiting ~ :)

Richard wasn't looking =.=

Zilian ~

This shop's opened by Chewyi's junior xD Crap.

So went back to bugis street.

We sat outside bugis street while chewping and sandy went to bought their things.

Yep, crap and all.

And this is seriously funny ok!

Ok, so I went back to find hk they all.

And played PSP and craped with them awhile.

And of course, cham-whore~~

They are trying to destroy the picture lah. xD

&I think his backview is nice with my bag :D

Ok, so went back and find chewyi they all,

After slacking in burger king with sly.

And hk is seriously lame la.

LOLS, so chewping wallet is lost.

And this uncle tell us to take a photo of him.

Damn cute lah him.

In the end cant find it lah.

BOOOOOOO~

So junqian they all went clubbing.

While we cabbed home.

And papa send us home after that.

And I must really thanks the guy for helping me to take all the things.

Thanks guys, you all are the best :D

Yep, slept and all and woke up.

Prepared myself and went to took 187 with junqian.

Went ah ma hse first.

And that stupid hk make me damn dulan la.

Idiot.

So waited for sandy and bused down to town.

Went to Lido to find chewping first.

And went to Fareast.
Walked around,

Nth caught my eyes.
And went to ate the chicken rice there.

Yummy Yum.

YUM ~~

And took photos while going to toilet

Ok, so walked around and all and bused home after that.

Took photos at home too xD

And ahma cooked curry chicken.

So every 20th will be our cousin eating chicken day :D

And papa send us home after that :D

Guess life's still have to move on.

No matter you're gone or what.

Have to accept the fact that you're gone.

Stop telling me lies anymore.

I hate and detest your lies.

I doubt your words.

Doubt the every words you told me.

Since I've alr decided to let you go.

Don make me change my mind anymore.

But, I'm still loving you.

And I'm finding it hard just to sleep at night.

Since you told me,

You won stay by my side.

Yep, I'm finding hard to let you go.

And to forget you. :(

I need you to keep me safe.

I need you hug to go into slp.

&I miss you ):

Alotalot.

Friday, January 18, 2008 5:43 PM

&I'm crying myself to sleep, again.

I saw this in my gallery.
Its from aung.
Thanks lah aunghtet (:

Yep. Went to sch today.

English was first.
Summary and all.
History was next.

Was playing a fool in the LT lah.

LMAO man.

Watched movies about japan.

And I was like fking tired lah. zzzzz

So after that was MT.

Slpt throughout the whole period.
Darn tired.

And recess.

Ate and slack.

And amaths.

Finally I understand what's MrChia saying.

And I felt sooooooo satisfied lah. :D
After sch helped out with the class deco.

Mins draw the cat,
And we coloured it.

And it looked like this!!! :D

It look like some kindergarden room though =/

&We're the hotcats! :D

After that was supposed to assemble in the hall.
And we tot that we're late.
So rushedddddddddd to the hall.
And went to toilet to wash our hands.
And something baddddd happen.
BOOOOOOOO ):
Hate it lah.
And took bus to NgeeAnn after that.
Took some photos in the bus. :D

&I love you girl :D

The three Ong's :D

1,2,3 SMILE! :D

So excited.
Reached there, took photos,

Took only one photo.

The cheerleading group :D

Walked around and meet richard.

He brought us walked around.

And meet ahmei at the bus stop.

So went home tgt with ahmei and richard.

Took photos while going home :D

Smelly shoes ~ :D

&This is my sister :D

And so I am here now. :D

Alright, shall stop here.

I'm DAMNNNNNNN tired. zzzzz

Goodbye readers! :D

Sighs, everything seems to be changing.

I dont know what happens to me.

I dont know why I cant stop thinking,

I dont know why I cant stop missing.

Missing every little part of us.

I hate being Emo,

I hate to think bout it.

My mind just cant though.

Boy, you din noe how much you've hurt me.

You din noe how much you've made my cry EVERYNIGHT.

I dont know how you've did it.

But I have to accept everything around me.
Because, its my life......
Yes, it's complicating my mind.

My mind's in a whirl now.

Teach me what to do.

I dont know how to do to make me stop thinking.

Baby, you're still a part of my life.

Tell me how to forget someone.

I've regretted, but, what's the use.

Everything's too late.

And I'm too tired.

Tired of every shit surrounding me.

I'm tired of all this games heaven is playing with me.

I'm tired of everthing, just everything.

Boy, and this sillysilly girl,

KarenOngKaiLun,

Still loves you,

Soso much ):

伞下的恋人中

不再有你我手牵手

你答应我的我都记得

但是你却忘了你的承诺

I wish that you could love me.

Like how I've loved you. ):